I’ll show you my studio …. gonna show me yours?

So, this is the post I meant to write last time, but another one came out instead.

I find that when I’m lost and swirling in the waves of uncertainty and overwhelm of life that I seem to be able to right myself, and take the next step forward after a moment of clarity.  In the last year or so, I have realised not only this pattern, but also the form of my moments of clarity.

It seems to go like this.  I’m lost, or beating myself up, or overwhelmed or some other unhelpful emotions that are clearly holding me back.  And then …. it “appears”.  A word picture.

These word pictures aren’t visual … so not a “picture” as such.  But rather some words that describe a picture.

Let me share one with you.  There was a time, about 18 months ago, when everything seemed to just go wild.  My orderly and structure life completely went to pieces.  All of a sudden, I was behind on my work, behind on my house management, there was no food in the cupboard, and I had lost the practices that fed me.  Months and months later, after torturing myself with my failures and so on … the moment came.  I realised that I had simply “come to the boil”.  So all of the disorder and garbage had been there all along in the stew of my life.  Turning up the heat, simply brought it to the surface.

Now I didn’t see a saucepan bubbling away with globs of fat needing to be skimmed … rather I “read” it …. as if in a book.  And that moment helped.  Immensely.  Things made sense to me.  I stopped feeling like a victim, I could take ownership of my stuff, and start to come back to me.

Just a few weeks ago I had a similar moment about my blog.  This blog is my “studio”.  My art room.  My sewing room.  My kitchen.  If I was a painter, these words would be my paint and my brush.  If was a quilter (like my mum), these words would be my fabric and thread.  If I was a heartfelt cook, they would be my ingredients and my oven.

This blog and these words are, no more and no less, my way of sitting with my feelings and my experiences.  They come together and I mix swirl and weave them together for no particular purpose … other than the love of words and written expression.

So, although to my eyes and to yours, my blog is just words on a page … in my heart it is a beautiful painting in wonderful colours.  I think this one is flowers in a vase!  What do you think?

I would encourage you to find your “studio” wherever it may be … and truly let your heart and soul flow through it.  It will help with everything else.  Mine does.

K xxx


About Kathryn Hodges

Hi! I'm Kathryn. I have many hats in this life. I am a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother (of 4!), a friend, a keen try-er of yoga, a lawyer, a business owner, an avid reader and a lover of this electronic world and it's connections. As the Principal of a wonderful law firm on the Sunshine Coast, Qld, Australia, I focus on seeing my clients as people going through change and I am committed to practising mindfully that I am dealing with people and their families. Precious stuff, hey! I hope you enjoy learning more about the things that impact on me, my life and my practice. Please leave me a comment, as I'm sure you have something you can show or teach me. We're all in this learning thing, called life, together xx Oh, and my professional obligations mean I have to remind you that my opinions are my own.
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2 Responses to I’ll show you my studio …. gonna show me yours?

  1. Gail OKeeffe says:

    Hi Kathryn, love your post and enjoyed visiting your studio. In reading your post, I gained inspiration and courage to be more comfy in my own studio. This for me is writing and telling it how it is in my world.

    • Kathryn Hodges says:

      Thanks Gail!
      It was really nice, for me, to figure out that I was just playing around. I felt relief … which is always a wonderful thing.
      I’ll make sure I come and check out your ‘studio’ as well!!
      K xx

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