So, this challenge is about Random Acts of Kindness and Paying it Forward. To do just one a week, and then share that experience.
This week’s result came as a bit of a surprise.
The recipient, this week, of my kindness is this person.
Someone that you may recognise more quickly as this person.
Yes. It’s me. Minus the neon hairclips. They kind of rocked, don’t you think?
Sorry, distracted by hairclips. Not surprising.
This week. I wasn’t Random. I didn’t Pay it Forward. I’m being Kind to me. Because I failed.
I failed my challenge. In a whole week (and really it was a week and a half because last week’s was done on Wednesday) I did not seize one opportunity to create a Kind Moment. That’s not to say I wasn’t kind. This morning, I even drove Mr13 to the bus stop and waited in the car with him in the pouring rain until his bus arrived. That’s Kindness, isn’t it?
Again. Distracted. Avoiding the failure.
I could beat myself up for it, and go on about how I failed, and that surely in a 10 day block I could have done better. Or maybe that I’m too busy or whatever.
But you know what, learning to be OK with failure is pretty important. It helps us to be resilient and creative and far more brave. And I could use a whole bunch of that.
I’ve spent an awful lot of time in my life making sure that I follow the rules, colour inside the lines and always look for the approving glances from others in authority. I’m starting to think that life could be pretty different if I just turned the dial down on those things for a while. To let myself fail. To try things, not knowing whether or not they’ll work out. To not worry so much about following the rules, but rather making up my own game and having some fun.
So, tonight, my lesson is one of sharing a failure. And in doing so, giving my weekly dose of Kindness, not to a stranger, but to myself.
After all, it’s really ok to trip and fall, as long as we get back up, and start walking, running, dancing or skipping, anything really. As long as we’re back in the game.
Have you failed anything recently? Could you give yourself a dose of Kindness, and try again? I’d love to hear what you think about failing and second (and third and more) chances.