“Welcome to Humanity”

This week has been a rattler.  I would love to share those stories with you, because I firmly believe that it is our sharing that helps us all to understand better that we’re not alone.  To see that we’re not the only broken one.

Because, you know what, that smooth, confident, calm colleague, boss, friend or stranger we see, is in fact wrestling with something that could pull them undone at any moment.  It’s not just you.  I promise you that.

But because my things, my this week things, involve other people, I cannot say more than things have happened that have taken me by surprise.  Life. Health. Work. Stuff.

Those things led to a whole bunch of phone calls, that frankly I couldn’t quite believe I was having.  I had many an out of body moment, when I would be in a conversation, then suddenly, I would hear a phrase, a word, a sentence again and feel like it couldn’t be true.  But it was.

In one of those chats, I had a great gift.  During one call, where I had expected criticism or judgement, I heard this “Kathryn, welcome to humanity”, said with compassion and understanding.

We had a discussion about the constant demands for perfection, the push to constant and ever increasing acceleration and where that can lead, when confronted with, well, the imperfection of our humanity.  Hello Black Dog?  Fortunately, the dog hasn’t arrived, but I can certainly see the open gate that could allow The Black Dog to wander on in.

So, yesterday afternoon, I acted on the advice I had received.  I took my foot off the accelerator, and headed on over to the beach.  Just me, Jack, fresh air, and no time limit.

I did my best not to think.  To stop analysing.  To stop planning and organising.  And to just be.

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Lucky I had an expert with me.  Jack knows EXACTLY how to do that.  To run at a bird that he’ll never catch.  To sniff at the crazy puffs of ocean foam that jump along in the beach breeze.  And to sit or stand, or sit then stand.  You know.  Just enjoy it ALL!  As the waves roll on and on and on, with their complete disregard for anything else.

Before I knew it, there were raindrops falling, and I fought the practical urge to run to the car before we got wet.  Because, well, we were already wet, and what did it matter anyway.

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It was only then, once I’d let go, really settled into just hanging out, that the gift arrived.  A rainbow appeared.  Isn’t it lovely!  Then I noticed something even better … that regardless of the clouds and the wind and the rain.  The blue sky is still there.

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Regardless of how dark the clouds of life might be, the blue sky is there, waiting.  And it WILL show itself again.

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And then to make sure I didn’t forget, another one appeared just as I headed home.

So despite making my through an emotionally rigorous week, today I literally feel relaxed and peaceful.

After all, the blue sky is still right where it always was.  Ready to brighten my days.

What do you do, to remind yourself that the sky is still blue on the days that feel so dark and grey?

K xxx

ps – I am really and truly OK.

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About Kathryn Hodges

Hi! I'm Kathryn. I have many hats in this life. I am a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother (of 4!), a friend, a keen try-er of yoga, a lawyer, a business owner, an avid reader and a lover of this electronic world and it's connections. As the Principal of a wonderful law firm on the Sunshine Coast, Qld, Australia, I focus on seeing my clients as people going through change and I am committed to practising mindfully that I am dealing with people and their families. Precious stuff, hey! I hope you enjoy learning more about the things that impact on me, my life and my practice. Please leave me a comment, as I'm sure you have something you can show or teach me. We're all in this learning thing, called life, together xx Oh, and my professional obligations mean I have to remind you that my opinions are my own.
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10 Responses to “Welcome to Humanity”

  1. Vanessa moore says:

    Rotten week, I am hearing you. I push and push through. This week you went to the beach and I went to bed. At the end of the day it is my safe place. I imagine Tilly with me while I cuddle her Nanna bear and I feel better.

    Xoxoxo

    • Kathryn Hodges says:

      We all need somewhere, don’t we Vanessa.

      Glad you could have some snuggly cuddly time. Perfect thing for a hurting soul.

      Hope you’re bouncing soon.
      K xxx

  2. Amanda says:

    The sand and the water will always be your connector to your grounding point. Thank Goddess you chose to live near there. Love Amanda x

    • Kathryn Hodges says:

      Thanks Amanda,

      Funny you should say that, I always feel strange and almost a bit panicked when we head inland. Just because I’m far from the beach. But I’ve only really listened to the beach in the last couple of years.
      K x

  3. Vanessa moore says:

    In about 4 hours I will be. Pete will be home from Adelaide. We have had 4 nights alone together since Feb 11th. Been tough, especially not being able to go to Adelaide for his Mum’s burial with all his brother and sisters there as well. I had to make a choice and live with it.

    Bring on 1.30 this arvo I say!

  4. Michaela C says:

    I adore this post. I know you’ve been having a very tough time and I’m sending you love and hugs and probably, knowing me, inappropriate amounts of alcohol.

    Keep being kind to yourself. Mwahs.

    • Kathryn Hodges says:

      Thanks Michaela,

      Yes it’s tough. And it’s also just life. Just not the portion that I’ve had to deal with before.

      I will be loving that alcohol from you. You can be my virtual bartender!! Whip me up a cocktail, will you darl??
      K x

  5. Debyl1 says:

    I know some people say we shouldn’t reveal too much but I agree with you K….by sharing our stories we are helping others know they are not alone.
    I believe that is a beautiful thing….helping a friend or a stranger know they are heard,their voice counts, and they don’t have to suffer alone.It gives hope and light….that has to be a good thing.
    When I am feeling sad,frightened or alone I often go and read twitter/blogs and comments as it makes me forget about myself.It reminds me we all have some darkness we are trying to lighten.It helps lift the weight of that black cloud.
    Other times I go to the nursing home extra early or stay longer so I can share more moments with the lovely oldies.When I listen to their stories or share cuddles and laughter,the clouds in my dark grey day part and some blue sky never fails to come shining through.
    If I am lucky enough a rainbow will appear giving me new strength and I feel I can face life and all its challenges once again.x

    • Kathryn Hodges says:

      Debbie,

      You are a beautiful weaver of words, always thoughtful of the reader and what they need. I sincerely hope that the exchange is that. An exchange that gives you something as well.

      Thanks so much. I’m pleased you know where to go when you need some time out from the pain of it all.

      K xx

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